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onsdag 29 oktober 2014

Fire Buffalo Woman



MARS IN TAURUS

All my family members and almost all my friends are flying here and flying there in the world, but I am not. I am just sitting here with all my pens and papers and all my bottles of color and now my kichen table also looks like a computer center, squeezed in between my heaps of books and paintings 
My wardrobe is full of paintings and my computer has 100.000 files and I cannot find anything.

But I keep going on. A day is “lost” if I have not produced at least one more object. Preferably a physical object, anything from a piece of furniture to a canvas painting or just some painted postcards or a nice photo.

Yes, I collect woods and boards to paint on and I collect tools and colors and….I think the computer has saved me from drowning in woods and paintings.
A new picture looks physical on the screen so my subconscious mind believes that it is OK.
My Mars in Taurus believes that it is a physical object. My Mars in Taurus gets the impression that I have produced yet a physical object because it can be seen with the eyes.
That is the point, because Mars in Taurus just loves things.
Mars in Taurus people like personal possessions! Their steady pace builds up a safe and solid place or a solid economy. Then they collect something that makes life nice.
To me, with Sun in Gemini, this sounds awfully boring, but I cannot avoid seeing that I am constantly at home where I am building, making something material. What would I be without all my interesting THINGS?
I call my home "my studio" - it sounds better. 


Taurus corresponds to the Second House, which is the house of money and belongings or of anything that you value, that gives you a sense of pleasure. Your possessions. The more the better.

Being a quick Gemini it can be a kind of conflict to have Mars in the slow Taurus, because the Gimini is the one who wants to go around everywhere all the time, wants to be everywhere and do everything and mainly just talk about it and quickly communicate different thoughts and ideas. 
But the Gemini is also connected to using the hands, so Gemini + Mars + Taurus (with Venus) = ideas and hands + activity + physical possessions (with beauty).
Handicraft can make my Sun and my Mars tolerate each other and co-work, even if they are not best friends. 


Other people like to take a walk in the forest. I do not! 
If I am in the forest I put up a tent and I put a carpet on the ground and then I make up a fire. I make a cosy bed and there I remain! Then I start building up something, even if it is just something made of stones and branches.

Other people can go out in the forest and make a little wheel of stones and sit there a couple of hours and find it fantastic. I do not. In such a situation I just miss my ordinary wheel that I already have constructed at another place.
It takes at least three days (maybe more) for me to "have my energy" settled down in a new "circle". 
In nature you can also carry around your own blanket to sit on (and feel at home in any place) but in our society it is not possible. 

A Medicine Wheel does not at all have to be made of stones. The Red Indians had to use stones because they were kind of nomads and they did not have a lot of things that they could permanently have around them in a peaceful own place.

And... how can you meditate on the spirits if you are in a tent with ten kids? You will have to go out in nature! 
Other more “solid” people built tempels for this purpose, often with the little flame on the altar in the middle, as a little piece of God. The Red Indian could quickly and easily construct a small stone temple in any place, and sit with  his burning pipe in the middle of it, a Medicine Wheel. In this way he could build a sacred place without harming nature. Good idea.

I live in the same place for a long time so I can have a room with a wood stove, a burning candle or a PC. Even the electric stove feels like an attractive center point. 

I make my own "Medicine Wheel" wherever I settle down, even if it is just for a short time. It is my little power space where I have all my Medicine Objects around me. But it also means that I get more dependent on and attached to my place as it is kind of heavy and stationary.
My Sun in Gemini doesn't like to be stationary, but my Mars in Taurus loves it. So the cooperation is that Mars makes so many different objects that Gemini gets it´s variation anyway.

My immediate surrounding just has to be full of ideas and colors and it can be paintings, books, papers, a Buddha statue, stones, crystals, postcards with nice pictures, candles, a torch light, a Krishna picture, the BhagavadGita, the ephemeride, some dictionaries and so on… and so on…but I do not place out a lot of stones, even if I know that stones can "hold memory". 
It feels as if my things could also hold memory. I have put all my stones in boxes. I have too many.

My Mars in Taurus is with a steady pace constantly building this wheel or Power House or whatever it can be called. Or rather, Mars is having it's focus om making, creating, constructing and painting all those nice objects that should be there. Maybe not really for the purpose of ever using them. It is just so important to make them!
If I had been living in the Medieval Age I would have been making church windows, icons or the small paintings in religious texts, that they made in the monasteries. If I had been a farmer´s wife I would have concentrated on embroideries. Being the farmer I could have made decorative paintings on walls and furniture. And so on. 

Mars in Taurus could, for another person, be some other way of creating something beautiful at a steady pace, variations depend on time, space and situation, but also on the rest of the chart and the aspects to other planets.
The same astrological aspect has different outlets in different ages and places, of course, and that means that you cannot know exactly what the activity is only from looking at the chart and a certain planet. If I associate Mars in Taurus with "religion" and temples, it depends on something else in my chart. A 15 year old boy would maybe associate it with making his MC as good-looking as possible. Another woman would just decorate the whole house in the most beautiful way by constantly putting up new curtains and nice flowers and then making the most delicious food, served on nicely decorated plates with the best wine. 
I could be in that way also, well.... almost... but... I think I would be more interested in buying, painting, collecting or even washing the beautiful plates than actually making the food. 
I think that my Mars does not like to see his creation being eaten up and in this way destroyed. His whole job just transformed into a heap of dishes!
That reminds me of the Tibetan sand paintings. So extremely beautiful and then just gone with the wind. 
Mars in Taurus is not so spiritual. The bull cannot see anything that is more than two meters above the ground. To him it no longer exists if it gets higher up. 

Mars cannot really understand that I now have so many things that it is enough. It is his job to make them and without job his life is meaningless. He has to continue, but he is reluctantly accepting that something can be produced also in/with the computer. 

My Mars tells me that I can use the PC to make up ideas for future objects that we can make! That is his main idea about the PC (in the same way as IKEA is building a kitchen in a PC before they give you the heap of boards.) Mars means that the computer is OK as it can serve the purpose of MAKING MORE THINGS!

But, there is no place for all those things, I say. 
Oh, it is not a problem, Mars answers. We just have to make small things! Tiny things! Postcards! Hundreds of small things, like the grass on the meadow! Flowers! 

Mars also says: Do not throw away anything! The day will come when you can use it to make something of it! 
If I find an old wooden box I get happy and I take it home and I paint it. But now I cannot bring home much more as there is no place for it.

Digital pictures and writings on the net do not cause my entire home to be filled with things. And Mars seems to accept it. 

My Mars in Taurus accepts the building and constructing of anything that can be seen, anything that looks like a physical object. And a digital picture does.
A text without a picture would be to tell Mars to give up life as he has not been involved in making something visible.

The Taurus, the bull, likes to focus on everything that is on the ground, like grass and... FLOWERS! I like to paint flowers!
Second House corresponds to Taurus, which is ruled by Venus, the goddess of pleasure, love and beauty.

I don´t like to be observed when I am creating something, because then I cannot focus. The observer might be a wolf or a hunter!
(I don´t know if that joke is also reality).

Dreaming of green meadows.
But not to run around on them.
No, just calmly standing there,
silently chewing on flowers.

And what was “shamanic” about that?
Well, it is the inner way, to learn about reality by observing what is here and now and what is really going on inside by associating to concepts in the forms of ideas, animals, gods or spirits or whatever we prefer to call our inner "energies". 
It sounds fun to be able to make magical things by being capable of “changing the energies” but how can you do anything with something that you do not even know about?
Astrology is just a tool to learn to see the inner energies and to sort out what is what. “Native people” make up wheels of animals for the same purpose. 

If I had been a Red Indian I would have been sitting in the teepe making flowery embroideries with pearls, but maybe also constructing or painting something else. I would not have been the shaman!!! But I could make the bag that he is carrying his things in.
If Mars in Taurus has to serve some higher purpose he will just decide that his duty is to put pleasure into it, like for example beauty. He will not be the teacher/preacher/leader. He is too physical and feminine for that. 

I am not flattered by my discoveries about that slow, steady and boring earthbound Taurus Mars. But I see that my Sun is feeding him with windy ideas to make him less boring.
Mars is building me a prison, but it is a nice place and I feel at home here in my self-made flower pot.

Mars in Taurus is a way of being and the Red Indians probably also call it something.
                                                         Fire Buffalo Woman



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